Thinking Cap

Its almost 3am and I lay on the bare floor; not hoping to find some sleep but with a desire to meditate on my love life. I feel like there is this untapped reservoir of feelings deep down but then my inner GOAT is bleating "bobo gbagbe oshi" *in Olamide's voice*. In defence another brother, my inner Justin Timberlake says in a high pitched voice as the beat of lovestoned played in the distance "BJ follow your heart".

 Who do I listen to? The ewure in me says I shudnt be a learner, the sexy lover boy says I shud follow my heart. *sigh* The last time I checked, my heart wants virtually everything good my eye sees; I'm greedy, flirtatious and shy of commitment (Terrible combination). Oboy following that heart na longthing o, but wudnt I be foolish to listen to a GOAT? How can a goat be telling me what to do?

 On the other hand, the GOAT might have a point here; The tingling feeling in my tommy might just mean nothing, the racing of my heart when I think of that certain somebody could be inconsequential. Why then am I bothering myself with all these things? My mates are out there making money, I'm here hugging pillow and rolling around on the floor. *Shiior*

 To hell with babes and all the drama that comes with them, I muttered to myself as I mindlessly looked at my bbm updates (hadn't touched my fone since like 10pm). That same second I jerked back to life as I stared at a display picture that caught my eye; I swallowed saliva hard. Neither Picasso nor Moliére fit paint this kain beauty walahi; if God spent 5 seconds on every normal human being during creation, he surely spent about 15 seconds on this beauty.

 Instantly my inner perv started looking at all the curves on this sister; from her smile to her bosom and then her posterior. ^.^ If I were to be born in the days of Moses I'm sure I wud have been cut down instantly; the thoughts I had towards that sister were not scriptural at all o lol.

 Nevertheless I stared on, even zoomed the picture and fed my eyes even though I just made a vow to stay off women. OMG I'm not a perv, I said to myself as I hurriedly closed the picture. I broke my vow seconds after making a decision to stay away from these descendants of Eve (how sad).

 YES I do feel a mad rush of feelings within me when I see a wonderfully crafted woman (This is a natural male characteristic). I could feel the same for a fearfully made woman if she has a great intellect (hope u dig this) lol but then what does this feeling imply? Is this what they call LOVE? If this is LOVE then I must be in love with like half the population of Africa lol (˘̯˘ )

 I'm tired of asking people what LOVE is, they never seem to be able to give me an answer. I wanna believe they also don't know what love is. If no-one can define what love is but yet everyone talks about it, then its okay to say love is a myth like flying carpets, the tall man (stalking shadow), unicorns and genies.

 Love is a feeling, I believe. Many say its a choice, others think Love just happens (co-incidence) and a few believe there is no love. To be fair, let's create an intercourse between these various beliefs on Love to form something substantial and definitive.

 I quickly grabbed my pen and notepad and wrote somewhere at the back "Love is that uncontrollable force of nature that makes humans feel like they are sentenced to a life of affection, actions and loyalty by nobody".

 Feeling dissatisfied i looked at the Love definition I wrote down again and laughed scornfully as I dropped my pen, "still doesn't make any sense to me" I muttered.